Announcing Jan’s new book: Love Incarnate: Twenty Years After Awakening
There is a presence within you
that has never suffered.
It lives in joy that has no cause.
It is who you most deeply are.
Some moment it will dawn on you: you’re free, and always have been. Radically free. You’ll realize you never needed to try so hard — either to spiritually awaken, or to make things happen in your regular life. You’ll realize that all along you had what you wanted. You already were it. A moment will come when you realize there’s not, after all, a problem. You will notice that the impulse to resist has left you. Things just are as they are. Inside it is weirdly peaceful, even though outwardly things are pretty much as they have been right along. It’s just that they no longer seem to be so much about you — even the ones that directly affect your life.
Your sense of who you are and what your life is about has opened, softened. A lot that used to matter is no longer absorbing. You move through things (all things) with a light-hearted ease. You can feel how struggle, the urge to make something happen — a whole life’s worth of effort — has drained right out of you, as if you’ve sprung a leak.
Children know something about this. Then forgetting comes. Grown-ups mostly have forgotten they ever knew something. Some have a little recollection, like a remnant taste of a sweetness from long ago, a fleeting bit of a song they know they’d recognize but can’t quite sing. They wonder about the source of this, how to find their way again to the origin of that inexpressible thing.
They may think they once had it, but then lost it. Or they may think they imagined it, that they dreamed up the whole thing to give themselves some kind of comfort, a respite from the daily, the difficult. But no, that isn’t quite what’s going on.
They didn’t dream it up. It’s real. It’s the most real thing there is. And it didn’t go away.
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The purpose of this website is to support the opening of possibility. Its intention is not to promote any particular spiritual tradition, practice, or set of beliefs. The invitation is to discover within your own awareness the place where suffering has never taken hold.
Love Incarnate: Twenty Years After Awakening (eBookIt, 2023) is part memoir and part guidance for seekers. It portrays Jan’s state of consciousness and what daily life is like now that she’s been awake for 20 years.
When Fear Falls Away: The Story of a Sudden Awakening (Weiser Books, 2007) is an account of just such a discovery.
The Freedom of Being: At Ease with What Is (Weiser Books, 2012) explores the nature of the self that is subject to suffering and shows the way beyond that limited self.
The Great Sweetening: Life After Thought (eBookIt, 2017 and 2016) is the newest essay collection. It invites the seeker to ask What am I? This is the heart of the spiritual search, the question Am I my ego and my thoughts, or am I consciousness itself?
Wishing you every opening, every letting go into joy and ease.